I feel it's been a few days since I've blogged, but it's been a very unique week. This week a dear friend of ours passed away. She lived her life as a testimony to God's grace and she was a mother that every child wants to have. In her death her organs were donated, saving at least 3 lives and she is now going down in history as the first westerner to donate her organs to Koreans (she served there in Korea 14 years and still was when she died). It's caused me much thought this week to the kind of mom I truly want to be and yet ironically, I've been so caught in these thoughts I feel I've had less patience than ever with my kids this week. Continue to pray that I will daily let my children know my deep deep love for them and that I will not grow weary and they will know the deeper deeper love that Jesus has for them. Another of my friends lost their 2 month old son this week as well. A truly contemplative week for me. It makes me realize again how precious and unique each of my children are.
Halle has been doing well. She's still having her ups and downs. Overall ups but the past two days she's decided to wake everyone up before they are ready to be up by crying very loudly. Have I mentioned that one day she should be a cheerleader cuz this girl has lungs! :) She's so smart and so independent. It's actually hard for me that she's so independent. I was thinking she's going to be the baby of the family and wasn't ready for her to be saying "wosiji" which means " do myself" for getting dressed, pouring her own milk, etc. Of course it helps with getting ready in the morning and the amount of time spent but she's my baby! she's supposed to want/need my help! :) And this girl wants to be like the big kids so much! Today is the 100th day of school so the other 3 are having 100 day parties andneed baggies of "100" things so she went to the kitchen and got her baggy to be filled with "100" things too!
So in all, it's been an interesting week for me. Not quite as much silliness, but I'm thankful for the time to reflect and to make changes so I can be that mom that says "I love you" every day multiple times to their kids and hugs them lots and listens better than saying "yep, uh huh, etc." I'm thankful for God's grace and His steady, unchanging love for me. I pray I'll be the same. No matter if they wake me in the middle of the night or pee their pants in fits of anger that I'll still unreservedly and unchanginly lavish love on them, just like He does for us.
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